..,hmmmnn,remembering something from the past. ..ahhh, that wound was too much, . .too much for me to realize if i can take the pain without faith in Him. .. i am weak, but i thank God for giving me enough time to seek and obtain the courage to move on. . .that once i was in-love. ..and almost lost. ..all for the first time...
heart has been jaded and broken, almost out of beat, out of tune. .out of life. .
natatandaan ko pa kaya kung saan nagsimula lahat or why i was hurt?. .. Yes, but i guess the feeling has gone. .. It was all gone that i would just smile for a while when it flash and let the good things be remembered alone...
diverging myself into a better horizon huh?,.. thankful, that ive seen what was God wanted me to learn yet never be radical and bitter about it, ..
Marahil inilayo lang Niya ako sa mas matinding kapahamakan, . .It's just me, who's too stubborn, too stupid enough to fight for something that wasn't really meant for me pala,.. He just wanted me to be safe siguro that's why He pulled me out from that situation and never be hopeful about it. ..never let drown from mistakes, more pain, more sufferings. .from more destructive thoughts. .
...regret has no space,i was in-love then, trust too much, did'nt ask for a perfect one, understand the differences, appreciate the small things... content. .naging komportable ako masyado of how those things would mean enough for a relationship to work...but really wasn't enough,. . or it wasn't really mean to strengthen enough because it tends to end so soon. ..
forgiveness has been done, there's no one to blame, there's no need to judge... though i thought it was all done and it has been forgotten. .will i be dealing with the same people again? Do i have to listen or do i have the right to do so?....
. . .pero yun na lang siguro maitutulong ko.., just listen to anyone who finds comfort from the things na nailalabas niya,just like me .. .kahit papano man lang makatulong ako without hurting anyone, ...
Yes i've got too much from the past,.. but i don't want to see any of them who's involved to suffer much,.. I gave up just to save something na mas magagawan nila ng paraan, too much? No, dahil alam ko it would mean something for someone sa mas kailangan niya kesa saken,. .
..hindi ako mananalo sa pagpaparayang yun kung hindi rin lang nakabuti at nakapagpaayos sa kanila..
Hindi ko ikatutuwa ang alin mang bagay na nakakabigat sa kanila.. but ...never will i take pain the second time around being noble enough to save any of them...
Honestly, i don't like what i'm hearing but there's nothing i can do about it. ..I'm just here to listen. .'yun na lang ang kaya ko. . . or better yet, not to listen anymore.. . and pretend that i don't care .
I"m not part of that story anymore..I've longed peace for the longest time and i won't stop it from coming,..not now that i've finally overcome the pain and see things clearly for the things that "matters" for me now.. .
I'm in peace now, more content,.. thank You, but God, let them feel the same.......
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